I’ve hit a wall

I’ve hit a wall. As much as I hate to admit it, it is true. It happens, usually when life gets stressful…work is crazy, the holidays are approaching, challenges with the kids, or family…it comes in, out of the blue, and bricks itself right in front of you, so close that you cannot avoid it, cannot go around or circumvent, you have no choice but to hit it head on and find a way to climb over or knock it down.

I don’t want to move, but I know I have to, people depend on me, work depends on me, I depend on me…I need to begrudgingly move forward.

This is where I need to discuss baby steps again. Revisit the idea that one small step at a time can get you through. While I hate the wall, despise the wall, and feel like sitting down, leaning against it, and staying put, I know I can’t. I am tired, but I need to keep going. I have been here before, so I know, I can get through this time.

Step 1: Recognize the impending wall speed toward me. CHECK

Step 2: Deep breaths, know this is not gong to beat me, and brace for impact. CHECK

Step 3: Isolate. Not the bad kind of isolate. The introspective kind. Take time for myself and “veg out.”

Step 4: Do not remain dormant. After a short period of time (a day or two max) start to climb over the wall. Step by step.

Step 5: Know that the wall won’t beat you, can’t beat you. Choose to move forward, around, over, or through the wall.

Step 6: You’ve got this!!!

Published by jenr8ion widow

I am a mother of a teenager. I am a career woman. I am a remarried widow. I am struggling everyday to hold it all together, raise talented and gifted child, and come out a better person in the long run. This is a chronicle or rant of my journey. Many will judge, many will criticize, but not many can say they walked in my shoes.

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