Fa, la, la, la, la, and all that goes away…

I have actually been dreading this post for the past two weeks.  The holidays, specifically Christmas, what a really complicated subject in the grief journey.  Hold tight and bear with me as this post may turn out to be an utter mess, as I vomit profusely, and undoubtedly irratically onto the perverbial page. I’d like toContinue reading “Fa, la, la, la, la, and all that goes away…”

“What’s up with the tiara, are you special or something?”

August 23, 2012, my birthday and a little over six months since my husband’s passing, I declared it to be the Year of Jennifer.  As I have stated, I hated the new normal and was dead set on picking myself up and forging a new path.  With this new me, I became adorned with aContinue reading ““What’s up with the tiara, are you special or something?””

I don’t recognize this person, who am I?

“You will never be the same again…”  You hear that, but what do you think about it really?  Of course there are events in your life that have lifelong impact, like the birth of a child, a wedding, the death of a loved-one, etc….   These are life-changing events that will impact day-to-day forever…all true.Continue reading “I don’t recognize this person, who am I?”

The term “widow”

Before I jump way ahead of myself, let’s define the word widow, dictionary.com defines it as such: widow – (noun) a woman who has lost her spouse by death and has not remarried. There you go, basic, simple, and so totally wrong.  Therein lies my problem.  Does re-marrying make my first husband come back?  DoesContinue reading “The term “widow””

“Stages of Grief” and why Kübler-Ross can bite me

The 5 Stages of Grief….this is some intellectual crap that was pulled together to try to make logical sense from a situation and that makes no sense and contains no logic.  Elizabeth Kübler-Ross developed these five stages:  Denial, Anger, Bargaining, Depression, and Acceptance.  I am here to tell you that while all of those stagesContinue reading ““Stages of Grief” and why Kübler-Ross can bite me”

Thankfulness, overwhelming

While appreciation and thankfulness should be practiced everyday, the month of November celebrates gratefulness.  I would be remiss if I did not take this week, the week of Thanksgiving, to express the overwhelming and blessed thankfulness to the family and friends who undoubtedly carried me through in trying times. The outpouring of support and prayersContinue reading “Thankfulness, overwhelming”

The day the whole world changed

February 14th, 2012.  Valentine’s Day.  Or in my case, the day that changed the direction of my life forever. Let’s set the scene.  My daughter, A, had just turned 8 years old two weeks prior.  My husband, B, was in the hospital, unconscious, on a ventilator and heart pump.  I was faced with an impossibleContinue reading “The day the whole world changed”

Hanging on by a thread

I am the mother of a teenage girl (we will call her A), and that alone could be a “bloggable” challenge.  I work a full-time career, 20 years with the staffing industry (also could fill up a blog with stories that would make your head spin).  I am a remarried widow, my new husband isContinue reading “Hanging on by a thread”