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I am not one for New Year’s resolutions, I never have been because I can make a fresh start at any time, beginning a new chapter can occur on any random Tuesday, or Wednesday or in the middle of any month on the calendar.  Why wait?  If my mind is set, then I should doContinue reading “2020, The Next Right Thing”

I have actually been dreading this post for the past two weeks.  The holidays, specifically Christmas, what a really complicated subject in the grief journey.  Hold tight and bear with me as this post may turn out to be an utter mess, as I vomit profusely, and undoubtedly irratically onto the perverbial page. I’d like toContinue reading “Fa, la, la, la, la, and all that goes away…”

August 23, 2012, my birthday and a little over six months since my husband’s passing, I declared it to be the Year of Jennifer.  As I have stated, I hated the new normal and was dead set on picking myself up and forging a new path.  With this new me, I became adorned with aContinue reading ““What’s up with the tiara, are you special or something?””

“You will never be the same again…”  You hear that, but what do you think about it really?  Of course there are events in your life that have lifelong impact, like the birth of a child, a wedding, the death of a loved-one, etc….   These are life-changing events that will impact day-to-day forever…all true.Continue reading “I don’t recognize this person, who am I?”

Before I jump way ahead of myself, let’s define the word widow, dictionary.com defines it as such: widow – (noun) a woman who has lost her spouse by death and has not remarried. There you go, basic, simple, and so totally wrong.  Therein lies my problem.  Does re-marrying make my first husband come back?  DoesContinue reading “The term “widow””

While appreciation and thankfulness should be practiced everyday, the month of November celebrates gratefulness.  I would be remiss if I did not take this week, the week of Thanksgiving, to express the overwhelming and blessed thankfulness to the family and friends who undoubtedly carried me through in trying times. The outpouring of support and prayersContinue reading “Thankfulness, overwhelming”

Once the chaos dies down, the family and friends return to their own lives, you start to settle in to a “new normal.”  A normal that includes all the obligations of your pre-death-of-a-spouse life, but without the support and companionship. This was a very strange phase because I continued to move throughout each day inContinue reading “The New Normal”

February 14th, 2012.  Valentine’s Day.  Or in my case, the day that changed the direction of my life forever. Let’s set the scene.  My daughter, A, had just turned 8 years old two weeks prior.  My husband, B, was in the hospital, unconscious, on a ventilator and heart pump.  I was faced with an impossibleContinue reading “The day the whole world changed”